Archive for August, 2014

[ Musings ] The more things change…

Posted: August 30, 2014 in Blog

… the more they stay the same. I found this entry from an ancient blog, written over 10 years ago:

“These are the days when I wish I could be an artist and make a living out of it. What really makes someone an artist anyway? For me, there is an all-encompassing, almost obsessive, need to express something to as many people as possible. It’s a driving desire to convey either a message, a feeling, an emotion, or just to touch someone and let them know they’re not alone.

This is my soul, my first love, and my greatest dream. No matter how much I try to nail my feet to the floor, to believe that life consists solely on survival, I can’t help wanting more. Feeling more. And giving more. Maybe it’s selfish of me but there is something inside me, something wonderful that I want to share with everyone. And even though I try to convince myself that I have nothing to offer, it only takes a soul in need to make me forget about all my doubts and just act.



Samsaya :: Good with the Bad

Posted: August 14, 2014 in Songs

Samsaya :: Good with the Bad
Available on Amazon: MP3 | Album

This entry had started out forced. I’d been wanting to write for over a month now, knew I had to. In retrospect, it’s fitting that my last (real) entry was called “Reality Check.” A lot has happened in the last few weeks, days that have both hurt and healed my psyche. However, my muse – yes, I need one even for blog entries – had just about wandered off and I hadn’t the heart to yank her back.

I do it Monday morning, I really need to think it straight
I’m done being stressed about decisions I need to make
Want a change of pace from fighting the grey every day
But you know what they say

One of the hardest things I’ve had to learn over the past few weeks is the fact that in most situations, there’s no clear right and wrong. ¬†There’s just choice and consequence. What are you willing to live with? What do you want more? What or who makes you happy?

The last question was the easiest to answer and the hardest to live with. (more…)

[ Musings ] This Place

Posted: August 6, 2014 in Blog



Today wasn’t perfect, but it didn’t have to be.
I didn’t finish everything, but I accomplished enough.

Small failures balanced by small victories.
In this moment of perfect stillness, I am utterly content.

Tomorrow marks both an end and a beginning.
I’m apprehensive but excited to see where this road leads.