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Dark Waves :: Beast Like Them

Posted: April 5, 2017 in Songs

Dark Waves :: Beast Like Them
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I missed a month somewhere. Work has been a slow slide into madness. It’s not retrograde (which I’m told is coming up. Eek.) Not that I put a lot of credence into that but people do. It’s hard not to feel the change in them.

This song is both a bane and a balm. It catches me in a state of mind I don’t particularly want to be in, but have to acknowledge before I can start climbing out. It’s a state of mad despair and desire, a black hole I can continue to fall in to, with the ghosts of everything I could’ve been, done, and want swirling around me, just out of reach.

It hit me like a gut punch once, during a live show. I wasn’t quite in the mood but was teetering on the brink of it. I had also just sorted out enough lyrics to scream out. So I did.

“When my heart starts beating and the love starts slipping away
Like the ghost of a soul that can never be saved
I don’t know where I go but I don’t wanna stay.

When my heart starts beating and the love starts slipping away
Like the ghost of a soul that can never be saved
I don’t know where I go but I don’t wanna stay.”

The song hit me hard. I fell and felt like I was going to drown. But a friend anchored me. Wrapped his arms around me tight. I could feel my nails digging into his hands but he just held on. He knew, somehow, without me having to say it. Though we’ve since grown apart, I’ll forever be grateful for that moment.

Last week found me similarly sliding. I’d hit a point at work where I wasn’t sure if I was making things worse by my presence. I wasn’t being effective despite putting in extra hours and effort. Something had broken, disconnected. I didn’t know how to fix it.

George Krikes :: ( Untitled )

Posted: February 8, 2017 in Music, Songs

Life in LA has been full of #moments when I've felt like I was exactly where I was supposed to be. Tonight was no exception. First show of the new year gave me the exact words I needed to hear. Thank you @gkrikes @rossgarren @stateweho & the guy who shared his fries with a starving stranger for a lovely evening. PS. Since this song is truly the gift that keeps on giving, I'm still on about it a month later. #livemusic #happyplace #acoustic #guitar #harmonica #healing #heartbreak #recovery #answers #thisishome #singersongwriter #californiaswampblues #americana #StateSocialHouse #TheAttic #TuesdayMusicClub #GeorgeKrikes #WeHo #WestHollywood #SunsetStrip #LosAngeles #LALife #musiclife #musicislife #gratitude

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Sometimes a song comes into your life seemingly at random, and it forms the baseline of your existence from that point on. At least, the message is so strong that you want to believe it should.

This particular one entered my life as stated above, right when I needed it.

“So go find answers, go find proof
Let the wings of your spirit guide you
Go find new love, take it in
And let your heart break again and again.”

That is what I needed to hear then, that is what I need to hear now. I’m coming up on yet another heartbreak. I wasn’t even particularly invested in either. I keep breaking my own heart– no one is doing it for me.

Much of my life thus far has centered around the concept of “need.” You need to eat. Sleep. Work. You need money. Love. Romance. I have a bad relationship with need, particularly when I fixate that need on people. Need does weird things to my brain and I end up doing stupid things in the name of it.

But what if… I didn’t need to need anything? What if I didn’t have to chase a high? This doesn’t mean apathy, it means acceptance and letting go. The line between “want” and “need” is sometimes a hard one to distinguish. But what if I could? (more…)

King Washington :: Evelyn

Posted: January 25, 2017 in Music, Songs

King Washington :: Evelyn
(Coming soon but catch them on tour here!)

It’s been ridiculously difficult to get rid of this song once it’s in your head, particularly when it syncs with your current state of mind. The song itself is sweet, catchy, with unexpected but very welcome harmonies, and a bridge that could go on forever.

Tyson or George (vocals, guitars), possibly both, once described this song as inspired by someone they met once, somewhere, and never saw again (I think). At least that’s what I got out of it. For someone who falls in love at the drop of a hat, it’s bittersweet and validating all at once.  (more…)

Colin Meloy :: The Crane Wife (Pt 1, 2, 3)
Available on Amazon: MP3 (Pt 3) | Album (The Decemberists)

I love those moments when a song falls in your lap, seemingly out of nowhere, and has a profound effect on how you feel, where you are, how you process those few minutes in life. This one landed in a text message I was too busy to properly appreciate yesterday.

Now, sitting on a couch with a fresh cup of coffee, watching the rain outside before I start my day at work, it seems a perfect balm. Almost a meditation. It’s bittersweet in that these moments are so fleeting. You want to hold on. Recapture that feeling during times when you’re not quite at peace with the world.

The song’s quiet, crisp guitar and clear vocals clear the space around me. Allow me to step back from the stress, the numerous worries, the little things that tend to trip me up in a day. It lets me just be. Perfect.

The Karma Killers :: Domino

Posted: January 3, 2017 in Music, Songs

The Karma Killers :: Domino
Available on Amazon: MP3, Album

For good or ill, this seems to be the song I’m starting 2017 with. Its innate pessimism contrasts with the messages of “hope” and “dream” I’ve been receiving over the holiday weekend but perhaps this is what grounds me from taking those messages and running away (into trouble) with them.

Super catchy, with a sing-along chorus and punk/rock edge, it’s the perfect track for a long car ride, parked in traffic. The entire EP is that actually. And something that will be in heavy rotation as I start this new year’s commute.

I want to find love in 2017, not for the sake of it, but to actually have a partner, a person who can ground me as well if not better than music. Someone who will be a tether, not a ball and chain. A shelter, a place for support, for comfort, to share laughs, and joy, and light. In that sense, I’m not exactly a “non-believer,” but I want to take these lessons from the past and turn them into something good. I may not be ready yet but I want to be.

“I pulled the trigger and it threw me right back
And now I’m feeling like a non-believer
Bullet through my heart
Dancing in the dark
Ohhh I fell like a domino.”