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The Killers :: Heart of a Girl

Posted: September 19, 2017 in Songs

The Killers :: Heart of A Girl
Available on Amazon: MP3 | Album | CD

Fate is a funny thing. Maybe not fate. Coincidence. Signs? As a romantic (and recovering Catholic), I tend to want to believe things happen for a reason. If not God, then the “Universe.” If not the Universe, then fate. Something. I don’t know how else to explain my current status. Perhaps there’s no explanation. It just is.

Looking out my window
An angel in robes appeared and nearly pulled me apart
A million miles of freedom, a million miles of road,
But I still don’t know where to start

After being single for going on 3 years, after losing and subsequently finding myself, after finally giving up and resigning myself to meander through life alone, I find myself in a bona fide relationship. We met online, of course, as is the case with many of the significant (not necessarily romantic) relationships in my adult life. You could argue that my last real romance was with someone I met online, not through a dating app, but through a messageboard for our favorite music at the time. I flat-out resisted dating apps for years, partially because of the stigma, partially because I was convinced I’d meet someone organically, just going about my day.

She wrote her number down
And she gave it to me
They had to scrape me off the floor
In this transient town, waiters and dealers
Trying to get their foot in the door

Somewhere between giving up on someone I’d met at a bar in Hollywood and letting go of another person I’d met at a bar in the middle of the Aegean Sea, I decided to give one app a go. (more…)


Dark Waves :: Beast Like Them

Posted: April 5, 2017 in Songs

Dark Waves :: Beast Like Them
(Not yet available)

I missed a month somewhere. Work has been a slow slide into madness. It’s not retrograde (which I’m told is coming up. Eek.) Not that I put a lot of credence into that but people do. It’s hard not to feel the change in them.

This song is both a bane and a balm. It catches me in a state of mind I don’t particularly want to be in, but have to acknowledge before I can start climbing out. It’s a state of mad despair and desire, a black hole I can continue to fall in to, with the ghosts of everything I could’ve been, done, and want swirling around me, just out of reach.

It hit me like a gut punch once, during a live show. I wasn’t quite in the mood but was teetering on the brink of it. I had also just sorted out enough lyrics to scream out. So I did.

“When my heart starts beating and the love starts slipping away
Like the ghost of a soul that can never be saved
I don’t know where I go but I don’t wanna stay.

When my heart starts beating and the love starts slipping away
Like the ghost of a soul that can never be saved
I don’t know where I go but I don’t wanna stay.”

The song hit me hard. I fell and felt like I was going to drown. But a friend anchored me. Wrapped his arms around me tight. I could feel my nails digging into his hands but he just held on. He knew, somehow, without me having to say it. Though we’ve since grown apart, I’ll forever be grateful for that moment.

Last week found me similarly sliding. I’d hit a point at work where I wasn’t sure if I was making things worse by my presence. I wasn’t being effective despite putting in extra hours and effort. Something had broken, disconnected. I didn’t know how to fix it.

George Krikes :: ( Untitled )

Posted: February 8, 2017 in Music, Songs

Life in LA has been full of #moments when I've felt like I was exactly where I was supposed to be. Tonight was no exception. First show of the new year gave me the exact words I needed to hear. Thank you @gkrikes @rossgarren @stateweho & the guy who shared his fries with a starving stranger for a lovely evening. PS. Since this song is truly the gift that keeps on giving, I'm still on about it a month later. #livemusic #happyplace #acoustic #guitar #harmonica #healing #heartbreak #recovery #answers #thisishome #singersongwriter #californiaswampblues #americana #StateSocialHouse #TheAttic #TuesdayMusicClub #GeorgeKrikes #WeHo #WestHollywood #SunsetStrip #LosAngeles #LALife #musiclife #musicislife #gratitude

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Sometimes a song comes into your life seemingly at random, and it forms the baseline of your existence from that point on. At least, the message is so strong that you want to believe it should.

This particular one entered my life as stated above, right when I needed it.

“So go find answers, go find proof
Let the wings of your spirit guide you
Go find new love, take it in
And let your heart break again and again.”

That is what I needed to hear then, that is what I need to hear now. I’m coming up on yet another heartbreak. I wasn’t even particularly invested in either. I keep breaking my own heart– no one is doing it for me.

Much of my life thus far has centered around the concept of “need.” You need to eat. Sleep. Work. You need money. Love. Romance. I have a bad relationship with need, particularly when I fixate that need on people. Need does weird things to my brain and I end up doing stupid things in the name of it.

But what if… I didn’t need to need anything? What if I didn’t have to chase a high? This doesn’t mean apathy, it means acceptance and letting go. The line between “want” and “need” is sometimes a hard one to distinguish. But what if I could? (more…)

King Washington :: Evelyn

Posted: January 25, 2017 in Music, Songs

King Washington :: Evelyn
(Coming soon but catch them on tour here!)

It’s been ridiculously difficult to get rid of this song once it’s in your head, particularly when it syncs with your current state of mind. The song itself is sweet, catchy, with unexpected but very welcome harmonies, and a bridge that could go on forever.

Tyson or George (vocals, guitars), possibly both, once described this song as inspired by someone they met once, somewhere, and never saw again (I think). At least that’s what I got out of it. For someone who falls in love at the drop of a hat, it’s bittersweet and validating all at once.  (more…)

Colin Meloy :: The Crane Wife (Pt 1, 2, 3)
Available on Amazon: MP3 (Pt 3) | Album (The Decemberists)

I love those moments when a song falls in your lap, seemingly out of nowhere, and has a profound effect on how you feel, where you are, how you process those few minutes in life. This one landed in a text message I was too busy to properly appreciate yesterday.

Now, sitting on a couch with a fresh cup of coffee, watching the rain outside before I start my day at work, it seems a perfect balm. Almost a meditation. It’s bittersweet in that these moments are so fleeting. You want to hold on. Recapture that feeling during times when you’re not quite at peace with the world.

The song’s quiet, crisp guitar and clear vocals clear the space around me. Allow me to step back from the stress, the numerous worries, the little things that tend to trip me up in a day. It lets me just be. Perfect.